Ghosting’s Cousins: Meet Caging and Earharting

What’s trending lately? In our ever growing online universe there is always something going on… Like a mid atlantic flight, the dating world can be filled with bumpy turbulence and at times shaky touchdowns on the runway; there is always something new going on and new terms to use.

1.20.16_001      So, I’d like to remind you of some past trending terms and phrases but also introduce you to a couple of new trending terms, with the hopes that these terms help you navigate a safe take off and smooth landing in the dating world.


Old Terms:

Over the years there have been different words that have started a trend; especially in the world of dating.

A few years ago we were all introduced to the term “catfish” thanks to the documentary of the same name. Gaining widespread popularity “Catfishing” according to Urban Dictionary is: “the phenomenon of internet predators that fabricate online identities and entire social circles to trick people into emotional/romantic relationships (over a long period of time).” This term grew like wildfire…I heard it used everywhere.

Example: “Ughhh …Guys I’m going on a blind date and I’m so scared I’m going to be catfished.”

“Hey does my profile picture really look like me? Should I upload a more recent picture? My biggest fear is being scene as a catfish.”

That term has come and gone; only to be used occasionally.

1.20.16_007The newest term to hit the dating world has made a lot of heads turn and think…’hmm have I ever ghosted someone or even worse…have I ever been ghosted.’

“Ghosting”: The act of completely disappearing into oblivion and ceasing all communications with someone you were dating casually. The ghost gives no indication or reason of leaving but simply vanishes without a trace, leaving the ghosted hurt, confused and in utter astonishment.

Example:“So I’ve been dating this girl for a couple of months, and we went to dinner a few weeks ago. I been texting her but now she’s completely ghosting me. No response.”

I’m going to keep this short and simple. Ghosting sucks. Word to the wise if you are ghosting, you are incredibly juvenile and whoever you’re ghosting should be lucky you’ve let them go; you’re obviously not mature enough to handle an adult conversation and tell this person why you aren’t into them and send them on their way. If you are or have been ghosted, learn from it and move on. This person who has ghosted you taught you a valuable lesson; sure it will hurt at first, but you’ll be much better off in the end. There are plenty of other fish in the sea; so you got a bottom feeder?…cast your net and try again. I promise there is someone willing to respect and value your time.

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New Terms:

I’ve had friends talk to me about being ghosted and all I can say is that it hurts to hear about and I’m sure its even worse to go through but I’ve come up with a few new terms that don’t only hurt, they’re just down right annoying.

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Meet ghosting first cousin: “Caging.” Caging is like ghosting, but adds a bit of a twist. The person doing the caging has similar qualities to a ghoster. The cager gives no indication or reason for leaving a relationship and fails to respond to text messages, phone calls, emails, etc…BUT here’s the twist; they continue to watch and communicate inadvertently through different forms of social media. They watch from afar the person they’ve decided to excommunicate.

Cagers view Snapchats, retweet, and like Instagram posts or Facebook statuses. They cage this person like an animal in a zoo, watching them from a distance but never getting close enough to actually communicate. It’s not only disrespectful but it’s incredibly annoying to the person being caged.

Example: “He’s caging me. He completely stop talking to me and wont answer my text messages but he likes all of my Facebook statuses.”

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««Honesty Hour: I was casually dating this guy, lets call him *Joe Schmo, and things were going great. On a horrific night for both Ronda Rousey and myself things crumbled and took a turn for the worse. After apologizing for any wrong doing, I was greeted with a cold non-responsive ghost. I quickly got back on my feet and and was reminded by my trusty and loyal friends of why this guy was truly not worthy of my time. All was fine and dandy and I actually completely forgot about the poor chump until one day I saw he was viewing all of my snaps- and at times viewing them seconds after they had been posted! He then started liking my Instagram pictures. But what was worse is that he began personally snapchatting my friends. Now looking back I can laugh at the whole situation and can only say that it validated what Ronda has said all along “relationships that are easily ruined were never worth much. […] a relationship worth anything will endure the process.” (My Fight/ Your Fight 157,158) *Name was changed for reasons of privacy»»

To those being caged, try not to let it annoy you too much. If it really bugs you, remember you have the power to allow a cager to view your online world. Delete them if it’s really bothering you. But my advise, don’t give them any more of your precious energy and time. In fact wear it as a badge. The person caging you is either infatuated or intrigued by you and could quite possibly still like you. At the end of the day they’re the ones that look like creepy immature stalkers.

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Meet ghostings second cousin twice removed: “Earharting.” To understand this term you might need a little back up history. Amelia Earhart was the first female aviator to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean and set many aviation records. In 1937, attempting to make a flight around the globe, Earhart went missing and is thought to have disappeared over the central Pacific ocean near Howland Islands.

Earharting is a term that is used when the person you are dating sporadically goes missing. They text you and call you normally but every once in awhile will drop off in the middle of a conversation and disappear. These people are known as Amelia’s or Earharter’s. They don’t necessarily go missing on purpose, but it can be quiet annoying to the person on the other side of the conversation.

Example: “We were talking and she suddenly stopped responding to my text messages in the middle of our conversation. She finally text me back 4 hours later without any explanation. I was totally Earharted.”

“Yeah sounds like she was pulling an Amelia.”

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I understand everyone is busy, but there needs to be a certain amout of common courtesy when conversing. If “waiting hours before I text back”is the game you like to play to add to the chase remember this; games are for children, not responding for long periods of time can get old quickly. Earharting isn’t the worse thing a person can do but can become a nuisance if it becomes a frequent habit. Note to the Earharts of the world: Only text or talk when you are available to respond back in a timely manner. Ignoring or blatantly not texting back shows a lack of propriety and disreguard for the feelings of others. If you do find yourself earharting and it is unconsciously done, apologize, move on and try to not be an Amelia in the future.

I hope you have found these terms helpful and now know how to use them in the dating world. To those dating, I wish you the very best of luck, and hope you now know how to spot a catfish, ghost, cager or earhart.

Questions about these terms feel free to comment or email me at unrulyandrefined@gmail.com

-xo ash

PS: My lovely PC hope this is a reminder to not allow anyone to cage or earhart you, not even a Disney prince, you’re too rad—and remember we aren’t DNB’s. No way!

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Here Today, Gone Tomorrow

Anyone who truly knows me, knows I have a thing for quotes. It could possibly be considered an obsession. A good song lyric can be a quote I hold on to, a simple yet poignant idea heard from a stranger or line from a movie or book can draw the biggest breath of air from my lungs. I’ll write quotes on margins of books or magazines and when I get really desperate (and my Iphone battery has died) I’ve been known to steal pens and napkins or toilet paper just so I don’t loose the quote. Words are huge with me, so when I hear a group of them formed into a wonderful quote I have to have it documented and stored in my vault.

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I started my blog exactly one year ago today, and I’ve acquired so much. The only way I can truly express what I’ve come to find within the year is by writing about it with quotes that I’ve saved. These quotes pinpoint who I am, how I feel and what I have come to find. So here it goes…

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In 2015 I’ve come to terms that I really, really, like to write. It’s very therapeutic and as Ernest Hemingway said “my aim is to put down on paper what I see and what I feel in the best and simplest way.” I plan on continuing writing for this blog, but also for myself. I love writing short stories and vow to take time in 2016 to continue to write stories on my vintage sea foam green typewriter I’ve named Steinbeck. (If you don’t know how I came up with the name my only advice to you is…read a book.)

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I’ve found that if “I don’t write to empty my mind, I go mad.” [Lord Byron]

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I have grown immensely this year learning about the different people that surround me each and everyday. But mostly I’ve learned about myself, and “like wildflowers; you must allow yourself to grow in all the places people thought you never would.” [E.V.]

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I’ve learned about the law of attraction and successfully put it to use, as funny lady Amy Poehler said, “you attract the right things when you have a sense of who you are.” I was told continuously this year that I’ve always had “that look of otherness, of eyes that see things much too far, and of thoughts that wander off the edge of the world.” [Joanne Harris] and have come to realize that my heart swings back and forth between the need for routine and the urge to run.” [Unknown]

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Thank you to the people who have allowed me to whisper and at times shout my dreams into their ears; always willing to listen to every detail I divulge. To all of you who have stood by my side and have help me grow, even if infinitesimally, thank you for opening my eyes when I’ve wanted to walk blindly onto roads that I didn’t see were that scary. As R.M. Drake wrote; “she could not make sense of the things that were meant for her, but she was drawn to it all, and when she was alone, she felt like the moon; terrified of the sky, but completely in love with the way it held the stars.”

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“I’m very picky with whom I give my energy to. I prefer to reserve my time, intensity and spirit exclusively to those who reflect sincerity” [Dau Voire]—to all those who I’ve spent time with in 2015, thank you. Thank you for simply letting me be me and sharing wonderful experiences and creating lasting memories I’ll cherish forever.

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I’ve learned that “I’m a simple person with a complicated mind”[Anonymous] and sometimes it just easiest to let go because “overthinking kills your happiness.” [Unknown]

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Like everyone in this world, I’m human; imperfect. I’d be lying if I said 2015 has been a year of daisies, cupcakes and rainbows. My road, like so many others, has had some dips and windy curves but they have all become lessons that I will never regret. I can proudly say that in 2015 whatever I’ve done I’ve given it my all and tried my best. As my ultimate heroine of 2015 Ronda Rousey said; “you have to be willing to get your heart broken. That’s just what fucking happens when you try.”12.30.15_019

Looking back there are so many things I wanted to happen that didn’t and vice versa- things that happened that I didn’t want or expect. I’m quite glad things played out the way they did because now I “consider that maybe God closed that door because he knew [I was] worth so much more.” [Unknown]

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So as 2015 comes to an end all I can confess is that it’s been a WILD ride; and as 2016 quickly approaches I can honestly say that it will be year unlike any other, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me. So many firsts, so many opportunities; I hope I take each given to me.

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An open road awaits me…cant wait to see what landmarks I hit, hidden treasures I stumble upon, U-turns I face and exits I’ll take. My wild ride continues and my car is loaded with fuel that will last until I reach 2017. “A lot can happen in a year!” [Anonymous]

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As a writer I’ve learned this year that “ some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity…” [Gilda Radner]

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 So long 2015! … 2016 I’ve buckled my seatbelt and am ready! Take me where you may. I’ll follow, but I’ll tell you now ahead of time, it’s not in my nature to always obey. 😉

 -xo ash

Places I’ll Remember

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There are places I remember
all my life, though some have changed.
Some forever, not for better.
And some have gone, and some remain.

All these places have their moments
with lovers and friends I still can’t recall.
Some are dead and some are living.
In my life I love them all. [The Beatles]

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You know that experience when you leave a place and “say see you later”, but don’t actually know the next time you’ll be seeing it? Then weeks, months or maybe even years later you go back to that place and it’s as if nothing ever changed; didn’t skip a beat and just continued as if you had never left at all. Is there a word for this? Whatever it is, I simply love it. I love that you’re both so comfortable and know each other so well. I love having that connection, it makes leaving just a bit easier because you know when reunited what you’re coming back to. It’s almost a sense of safety and security.

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Cayucos: Summer of ’96

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Cayucos: Fall of ’15 [we traded in ice cream for ales]

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In this vast world it’s hard to find a place to make you feel comforted and special like this. I’ve traveled to many places and find this experience to be very rare. Two sweet beach towns that lie on the edge of the central coast of California have this very rare quality. Cayucos and Carmel have little pieces of my heart. Each time we meet its as if nothing has ever changed. These places played roles in making me who I am. They watched me grow.

But places aren’t the same as people, because when you leave a person you will not encounter the same one upon reuniting. They’re always slightly different. They’ve changed; even if it’s a minute shift. When we leave people, we take with us visions of how they were; memories that help when that persons gone and far away.

People evolve. They are ever moving. No person will be the same way they were when you left them. They meet new people that open their eyes in ways they never thought possible. New experiences change them and the way they see the world can slowly shift as well. So as I begin to embark on a new phase in my life I can’t promise that when I come back I will be exactly the same person. No, that would be ridiculous to assume. But I can promise to take all that I experience and learn, and make it a beautiful chapter in my growing story. I can only hope that when I return I will be an even better version of myself.

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❝So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow. ❞Attachments, Rainbow Rowell

 

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To those I love, just know I’ll be back. Like an old Australian Proverb says: “We are all visitors to this time, this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love… and then we return home.” Remember this isn’t goodbye; its see you later.

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-xo ash

ps: To those who have helped shape me like the places and people in these pictures, thank you…in my life I love you all. (Anna, my kindred spirit, thank you for giving these places that much more meaning. Promise to let Tommy dance with YOU next time 😉 )Anna and Me


Carmel Favorites:

  • While in Carmel-by-the-Sea save your appetite and check out my favorite little Italian restaurant, Little Napoli. It is seriously the best! I always order the same thing and it never gets old. Be sure to order the crab bisque, steamed manilla clams and of course Chef Pepe’s famous garlic flatbread. Made from a 100 year old family recipe it will transport your taste buds to Italian citys like Rome, Naples, Sorrento or Capri! If there’s still room, have a cappuccino and share the Tiramisu..you wont be sorry.

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  • Run off all the food you ate at Little Napoli and take a jog on my favorite stretch of beach, Sand Dollars. Perfectly named, this public beach is littered with little white sand dollars early in the morning and has the best view of both Morro Bay and downtown Cayucos. I love getting up early and jogging on the sand, or finishing the day watching the sunset and strolling.

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Road Trippin

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108 degrees Fahrenheit
1 RV
2 rescued dogs
3 desert dwelling darlings that inspired

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64 degrees Fahrenheit
8 hour drive
1 trusty 2006 Toyota Corolla
5 minutes of uninhabited dancing at fisherman's wharf

Road trippin’ with my two favorite allies
Fully loaded we got snacks and supplies
It’s time to leave this town
It’s time to steal away
Let’s go get lost
Anywhere in the U.S.A.

Two girls in search of adventure. It’s how every one of our trips starts out. But we’re not just two average girls that have a set itinerary and clothes laid out for each day. No; we dance to the songs in our head, over pack as if we’re leaving home for a few months and always tend to meet some crazy characters along the way.

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Life throws us curve balls and usually we hit them out of the park; that or we at least get on base and hope the next at bat brings us home. Our go to road trip snacks include but are not limited to pretzels, chocolate, flaming hot munchies, caffeine of any form and of course vodka (for the Moscow mules we make in celebration of making it to our destination).10.8.15_027

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We each have our distinct roles on the road. I can always count on Meghin to have researched our destination with cool places that we could hit up. A crumpled up piece of paper (our version of an activity sheet) is always on hand. Outdoor swap meets, vintage clothing shops, free musical festivals, food truck gatherings…anything off the grid is written on the paper and stuffed in a purse, always at our disposal.

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We both have similar taste in music but I can always count on Meghin to bring along jams crossing all genres. Everyone knows that an epic road trip cannot be achieved without an outstanding playlist. Our eclectic playlist includes but is not limited to The Beatles, Fleetwood Mac, Taylor Swift, The Mamas and the Papas, Beyonce, Sublime and many more.

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I am always ready to document our experiences with at least two different types of cameras on hand. I try to shoot anything I find interesting and different; specific things, things that will evoke a memory when I look at them once the trips have ended. Poor Meghin usually has to wait for me to get the right shot and the right angle and heaven forbid someone get in the frame at the wrong time. I “take photos as a return ticket to a moment otherwise gone”.

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Big Sur: Bixby Bridge

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When you road trip you find out a lot about the person you’re with. Not everyone makes it out alive. Does the person you’re traveling with sing really loud and off pitch? Do they need to take a million bathroom stops? Can they only stay at five star hotels fit with valet and room service?

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Lucky for Meghin and I we both have perfect pitch (…well almost perfect); we only stop for gas, bathroom stops that are absolutely necessary and in-n-out; and as long as we feel safe and there’s a soft pillow under our heads we’re pretty much fine with staying at any hotel or hostel.

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While road tripping I love to always keep my eyes open. I try not to sleep. You never know what you’ll see. I encourage every wandering soul to drive out onto an open road with a great playlist, a true friend and a mind that is open to whatever the road brings your way.

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good shoes take you good places

Remember it doesn’t matter what road others take, what short cuts they find and how long it took them. Your road is just that: it’s yours. Some people will hop on your road and ride along side you for miles, some for a few short yards. When it’s their time to exit be grateful for your time with them and send them off with positive vibes; who knows you might see them down the road. When you have a hunch listen to it. Stop when you feel you need to. Forget what the right thing would be for someone else and do what’s right for you. Go your own way.

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-xo ash

ps: Meg thanks for being my ally on the road, keeping me awake with deep conversations as we drove down the 1 and for always reminding me to live fearlessly.

Gladiator Games

Summers “IT” shoe has always been the sandal… but this summers sandal isn’t just any sandal it’s the fashion forward Gladiator sandal! Worn by warriors in combat in A.D. 80, actors in the 30’s, models in the 60’s and celebrities today, this seasons key shoe is sure to have people doing double takes; and why wouldn’t it?!

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DISCLAIMER: Not just anyone can dawn this iconic sandal! Note that it takes a specific woman to wear the famous Gladiator. To compete in the Gladiator Games a woman must posses a certain level of confidence and poise. After all, the sandal was depicted in ancient art as being worn by Greek goddesses. Like ancient Gladiators you must be brave when wearing the sandal.

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“We gladiate but I guess we’re really fighting ourselves. Roughing up our minds so we’re ready when the kill time comes!”-Lorde

Mentally prepare yourself! Not everyone will understand the fashion forward sex appeal that is the Gladiator and will have no problem voicing their opinions and doing so loudly. That’s okay, they don’t have to like it, as long as you know who you are and love the way you feel that’s all that matters! Be ready to make headlines!

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When stepping into the sandal, remember that you aren’t just wearing everyday footwear, you’re dawning a piece of history… so wear it proudly! Stand up straight with shoulders back knowing you can conquer anything put in front of you (just like ancient Gladiators)!

“Give a girl the right shoes and she CAN conquer the world!”-m.m.

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History of the Gladiator Sole

Emperor Titus of the Flavian Dynasty opened the Roman Coliseum to the public in A.D. 80; its main purpose was to promote public welfare and decrease the opulence that was created by evil emperor Nero in prior years. Titus opened the Coliseum mainly for entertainment. The arena took on a life of its own hosting a festival with 100 days of games, Gladiatorial combats, mock naval fights and wild animal feuds. More than 50,000 spectators crammed into the large amphitheater to watch Gladiators engage in combat. Early on Gladiators were merely slaves, prisoners that had committed serious crimes and conquered people from around the world. But because of the fame, popularity and money that came with the Gladiator fights, new combatants rose through the crowds. Men, and WOMEN, signed up voluntarily. These men and women trained, willing to fight and show their skill in an amphitheater filled with roaring fans, in need of an entertaining show. Gladiators fought in the hot Italian sun and demolished the Coliseum ground, which was covered in sand to absorb blood from battle. To help protect their feet Gladiator sandals were created and made from the highest quality leather with long thin straps that would tie up around the ankle and calf. Sandals were ancient Rome’s most worn type of footwear. After the gladiator combats the sandals became a marker of status, with the finest leather being used for sandals on those in higher rankings. —I believe ancient gladiators would feel honored that they started a trend hundreds of years after the fall of the empire.


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  • LOOK 1: I paired a simple black dress with my favorite pair of black heeled Gladiator sandals. When wearing this look the key is to not complicate things. Remind yourself that the Gladiator is the focal point of the ensemble, so play down the rest of the outfit.
  • LOOK 2: Denim high waisted shorts and a flowy peasant top work well with my favorite light colored leather Gladiator sandals. Pair this sandal with a fun summer dress for a more relaxed ethereal look (think Roman empress).

Gladiator sandals are my favorite! Both sandals can be played up or down for both the unruly girl AND the refined girl; it all depends on the occasion. If you’re only problem with this look is that you can’t afford it, than there is no problem! The Gladiator can be found in many different stores for a variety of styles and prices. Find the one that works best for you.

Also: There’s enough drama in the shoe so don’t go crazy with hair and make-up. Make it seem like you just defeated your worst enemy on the Coliseum floor and are now ready for victory drinks with your best girlfriends! Keep make-up glowy and natural and hair either pin straight or soft effortless waves!

Have fun with this look and don’t forget your best accessory with the Gladiator sandal is a confident smile! 🙂

-xo ash

PS: m.h. you’re rad and you rock! Thanks for being the Nigel Barker to my Tyra Banks and reminding me that we all have a little bit of america’s next top model in us. I think we just added photographer to your bag of tricks! You da best!

Vulnerability: Unedited

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I’m going to say something most wouldn’t agree with but that’s okay. I believe that our generation is afraid of commitment, but mostly afraid of being vulnerable.

If I had a dollar for every time I heard someone my age say something like “I’m open to love and dating but I’m not ready to be in a serious relationship” or “I want love but I’m just not looking for anything crazy right now” I would be able to buy the newest Marc Jacobs cross body bucket bag and still have money left over for a matching wallet!

We want love. We want to date. We want relationships, BUT we allow ‘stuff’ to get in our way and usually that ‘stuff’ is ourselves.

We are either lazy and don’t want to take the time and effort into finding what want. Remember this is the information age; we want what we want and we want it now. We don’t like to wait and get antsy quickly and lose interest.

OR… there is the issue of being too picky; trying to find prince charming or the enchanting princess to complete the fairytale. I’m not saying to just fall for anyone, on the contrary, I’m a firm believer in “not settling” and “keeping your standards high” but I also believe if you set your standards so high that even you couldn’t reach them if the tables were turned, than maybe you should reconsider dating and relationships at this time. [I’ll let you in on a little secret: if you’re looking for perfection you’re going to be looking for a very long time because it doesn’t exist.]

BUT… I believe the main reason we can’t find what we want is because we’re scared. We’re scared of the unknown. We’re scared of being vulnerable.

Maybe we know what we’re getting into because we’ve had prior experience with dating, love and relationships. Maybe something went sour and now we’re jaded and afraid we’ll make that same mistake or that we’ll be hurt. Dating, relationships and love can be scary but it’s just like anything else; you have to try, live on the edge and embrace it all.

Vulnerability. The word alone is scary. You are susceptible to almost anything and that can bring on the chills. You can easily be hurt at any moment, heart smashed to the ground, left to pick up the pieces OR there is the possibility you can be on cloud nine relishing in the “cant eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence, World Series” kind of love. Either way in order to find what you want you must be vulnerable and open to it all.

While speaking on the power of vulnerability at a TED talk Brené Brown (scholar, author and public speaker) said it best; “in order for connection to happen we have to allow ourselves to be seen” which is the bases of vulnerability. According to Brown we must be courageous. We must rediscover that we are all imperfect. We must fully embrace vulnerability and be authentic with ourselves. What makes people vulnerable makes them beautiful. Remember its not always comfortable, but its also not excruciating.

Vulnerability is necessary! Brown feels “it is a willingness to do something where there are no guarantees, like say ‘I love you’ first. The willingness to invest in a relationship, that may or may not workout”

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We all struggle with vulnerability and when confronted with it, we tend to numb it. But unfortunately we “can not selectively numb emotions and hard feelings.” When we block our emotions and cut ourselves off from the world we lose the chance to really live. We rob ourselves of joy and in turn end up feeling down; which is no way to live.

5.16.15_008We must be courageous and take a step knowing things might not work out the way we want them to but knowing the experience will help us grow. For those that ask me for advice before a big date and tell me they want love BUT are scared and don’t want to be hurt NEWS FLASH: love is scary and can be crazy, I won’t sugar coat it; but at the same time be reminded love can also be incredibly beautiful. At times it requires sacrifice but it is a sacrifice you must be willing to make.

While thinking about vulnerability I asked people I work with and complete strangers about love and vulnerability. I asked two simple questions: Have you ever been truly deeply in love/vulnerable and had your heart broken? And if you could would you take it all back?

The answers I got didn’t surprise me. If they were in love and were ultimately heartbroken at the end of the day they wouldn’t trade it in for the world and would do it all over again if they had the chance. One man said ‘I actually let THE ONE get away because I was too scared I’d be hurt, but now I’m hurting more than ever-but it’s ok. You live and learn.’

This confirmed what I knew all along—“Tis better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all.” But remember love does not always end in loss. One woman said she made the best choice of her life by allowing a man into her heart and can now proudly call him her husband.

I’ll end this post in the hopes that you discovered a little bit more about yourself, feeling more confident to go into the world of dating, love and relationships AND more open to being vulnerable in the future, completely unedited.


“Be authentic and real. Let yourself be seen, deeply seen. Love with your whole heart even if there’s no guarantee. Practice gratitude and joy in scary moments. Believe you are enough.”- brené brown

-xo ash

PS: Kid from Kansas (with the cats named after the chemical elements) I know it can be uncomfortable but don’t be afraid to step out of your comfort zone and life of stability. I hope you find this insightful. “If there’s a thing I’ve learned in my life it’s not to be afraid of the responsibility that comes with caring for other people. What we do for love: those things endure. Even if the people you do them for don’t”- Cassandra Clare